Joris Iven |
UNBORN SONS
Letter to Torgeir Schjerven
What I have written about to you are all futilities. I had been given an ash-tray and a bottle of Bardolino for my birthday by my daughters, had read several offensively recognisable lines by Paula Meehan. I wrote that I was looking for a satin dress in which I could lay down my head. What difference does it all make, Torgeir, what difference does it all make? At this very moment defenceless daughters are once more being born from unborn sons such as you and me. This morning is rain-grey and blood-curdling. I know the word blood-curdling was not part of our jargon, but part of that which was unsaid between us. I know, since this morning, why you did not answer my letter. A long way away you have taken off your beige jacket, kicked off your cheap leather sandals on a holiday beach on the Cyclades. What united us was the knowledge that our need of love knows no satisfaction. We remain unborn sons who, a cigarette between our lips, a bottle in our hand, wave to an imaginary mother who we remember from a black and white film from the fifties. We have revolvers, weak wounds, grinding brains. What more do we want? We are all worrying about futilities. Aren’t we, Torgeir?
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